Ever wished for a do-over?
We all probably have.
My most recent longing centered around a professional situation that I had been thrust into, totally unprepared. One in which I knew that the best of what I had to offer had not been made evident.
You know the kind; where you replay the events of the day over and over, like a stuck film reel, critiquing your performance. Why did I say that? Why hadn’t I said that instead? Why? Why? Why?
The negative thoughts swirl around in my head; a tornado threatening to rip my twenty years of experience away, taking my self-confidence right along with it.
Stop, I eventually told myself.
I was not about to let the enemy erode my confidence in my God-given abilities.
So maybe I did not shine this time. That’s okay. Life isn’t perfect, and we won’t smell like roses all the time.
Instead, I forced myself to recall a couple of truths.
1. I am unique. God made me who I am. It would be foolish of me to compare myself to anyone else as I am not a carbon copy.
(NB: The compulsion to compare never leads to a positive destination.)
2. My self-worth comes only from God. He loved me enough to send His only Son to die for me. He paid the ultimate price for me.
My value does not depend on the reception I receive from others, nor their perception of me.
Therefore, I choose to remember that the amazingly-awesome God of the universe knows the number of hairs on my head. “Even the hairs of your head have all been counted..”
Luke 12:7a GNT
He has my name written on His hands. “…I have written your name on the palms of my hands.”
Isaiah 49:16b GNT
That’s how important I am to Him.
Friends, there is nothing wrong with self-reflection. However, there is a distinct difference between reflecting for the purpose of improvement and reflecting and getting stuck.
Sin marred the perfection that God created many years ago. Life is not easy, and we will encounter situations that we wish we could do over. But don’t beat yourself up. Ask God to help you to move on.
When God looks at us, He doesn’t see our flaws and our mistakes. He sees our potential.
He sees all that we are and all that we could be, if only we remember whose we are.
So today, choose to see yourself through God’s eyes.